Saturday, 5 March 2011

Oxford 'Till I Die

Last weekend was the biggest weekend of the season for OUWAFC as we traveled to Cambridge to play the 26th Annual Varsity Match between Oxford and Cambridge. While this game doesn't mean anything for the league or cup, it is merely a point of pride between the two Universities and two football clubs. However, the game does hold repercussions in that, if we win this match, members of the first team earn Blues, which is sort of the equivalent of a Varsity letter for Oxford. Furthermore, this is a rivalry that has spanned hundreds of years. The only other real rivalry I've ever had (between AF and Army) is a much newer rivalry and so it's been great to be a part of this old and well established athletic animosity.

Last year I was relegated to the substitute bench for the Varsity match considering I had only come back from my broken ankle the week before the game. It was rough to watch from the sideline, especially when we went down early and wound up losing the game 1-0. So, this year, revenge was in the air as we were looking for just the second double away win in Varsity Match history.

We left Oxford on Friday afternoon and arrived in Cambridge that evening. We had a team dinner at Zizzi's and then headed back to the hotel. Everyone came to my room and we made posters for the Furies match the next morning. The highlight of the evening, however, was undoubtedly the debut of Juice and Liz's amazing song. There are no words, you have to watch the video:

http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=568495024503

Because of the BIG day the next day, we got an early night and slept in before getting up for breakfast in the hotel. We then went to watch and cheer on the Furies in their match against the Cambridge Eagles. Cambridge’s second team is in our league and so Furies had already played them once this season, winning that contest 6-1. So, they were fairly confident in their chances in the match, but very few people would have predicted the absolute drubbing they gave the Eagles. It didn’t take long for the Furies to settle in to the game and they were quickly out to a lead, taking a 4-0 into halftime. They kept right on scoring in the second half and it actually got a bit boring to watch them run circles around the other team, finishing the game with an easy 7-0 victory for the largest win in Varsity Match history.

Following the Furies game (and some confusion from the Cambridge Blues about whether or not we’d actually be allowed to use the pitch we were meant to play on) we headed over to the Fenners Cricket Gound where our match would be played. It took us forever to get into our changing rooms but eventually we managed to change into our new kit and get out to warm up. Everyone was buzzing with great energy in the warmup and we were all really excited to get the game under way.

It took both teams some time to settle in and find a rhythm in the match, but we gained the upper hand early, keeping the ball in the Cambridge half and earning several early corners. On the second corner kick, I launched an in-swinging corner into the Cambridge area which curled into the goal at the back post. The Cambridge keeper reached back to clear the ball but it had already crossed the goal-line. After some confusion in the box that included a Cambridge player handling the ball on the line and the referee originally calling for a penalty kick, discussions between the referee and linesman led to the awarding of a goal and a 1-0 lead for us. We kept pressing in the half but despite several close shots and great chances, we failed to score another in the first half.

About 15 minutes into the second half Cambridge equalized with a freak goal. A Cambridge defender, deep inside her own half, cleared an attempt at a through ball, Her clearance bounced just outside the 18 yard box, caught the Oxford goalkeeper off-guard, and floated just over the keepers head and into the back of the net. Despite the Cambridge equalizer, we continued to push forward, eventually getting the go-ahead goal after some great play down the right wing from Juice and Rouse, resulting in Rouse putting the ball in the back of the net with a great finish.

The final whistle sent us, and our great crowd of supporters including Kristen, Neal, Sim, Adam Comer, and all the Furies players among others, into cheers and celebrations. It felt so amazing to get the win, get a goal, and play a genuinely competitive match unlike most of our games this season. We had the medal ceremony and trophy presentation which, as captain, was even better than I imagined. As I had promised Kirsty I would do if we won, I downed beer out of the cup, which, I must say, was absolutely disgusting!!





We then returned to the hotel (absolutely giddy and buzzing from the win) and got showered and changed for dinner. One of my favourite parts of the Varsity weekend is the dinner on Saturday night because everyone dresses up. I usually see my teammates in football clothing or in fancy dress (costumes) so its great to get to see them in dresses, hair done, makeup, etc. Its also fun to dress up every once in a while so I relish the chance.

We took taxis to Wolfson College and had a really nice dinner that sort of descended into anarchy…typical. Last year was far worse, with the Furies and Cambridge Blues (the winning teams) shouting and chanting abuse at the teams they had beaten. This year, considering both Oxford teams had won, we didn’t really feel the need to rub it into Cambridge’s faces and so we kept it pretty civilized until Cambridge started with the “fines”. Basically, someone stands up and says “I fine anyone who (fill in the blank)” and whoever that applies to has to stand up and drink. These fines ranged from tame ones like “fine anyone who scored today” to more questionable ones like “hooked up with their coach.” We traded fines back and forth between the two teams throughout the meal and then, when the meal was over, it was time for the Man of the Match presentations and speeches. It was at this point that the Cambridge captain decided to make a drunken fool of herself as she slurred her way through her speech, starting and stopping three or four different times before finally relinquishing the chair on which we were standing to be seen by the whole room. Since it was my turn, I got up on the chair and started to talk but the Cambridge captain decided she wasn’t quite done yet and attempted to get back on the chair. She was so drunk that she was literally swaying back and forth and I had to grab onto both her shoulders to keep her from falling off the chair as she rambled on some more. Finally, we got through all the speeches and it was time to move on to the club.



Apparently there is really only one club in Cambridge, Cindies (which isn’t even called Cindie’s, that’s just what everyone calls it) and so it was really crowded with tons of Cambridge and Oxford athletes celebrating Varsity. I had a great time chilling and dancing with my teammates and Neal and Simon who joined us at the club, although the downside of the night was when Soupy hit her head getting what was probably a pretty significant concussion… But overall, great night, great group of girls, great weekend.

The next morning was absolutely brutal. There was not a single person who wasn’t hungover and exhausted. Despite getting to sleep around 3 or 4, I still couldn’t sleep in and was up around 7:30 for some unknown reason. Eventually everyone rolled out of bed and got themselves out the door for the worst Minibus ride ever. It is a miracle that nobody was sick on the journey and I couldn’t have been happier to get back home to Oxford. Why I thought it’d be a good idea to go to a pub and watch the Arsenal-Birmingham Carling Cup final, have a few pints, and then go play 5-a-side with the guys is beyond me, but I did it anyways…. Oi.




All in all, it was an AMAZING weekend. I’m so happy we won, I’m so happy to have gotten the chance to play and become friends with these INCREDIBLE girls, I’m so blessed to have friends who come watch me play (I love you Neal and Kristen), and so happy to have gotten to have this amazing experience in my time here at Oxford. Oh and now I get a cool Blue Blazer (that I will never be able to wear once I go back to the states and am stuck in a Flight School most of the time).

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

Remembering fallen heroes

The last week of January/beginning of February is a tough period of time for NASA with all three of its major accidents occurring between January 27th and February 1. While I always remember Apollo 1 on the 27th and Challenger on the 28th, my connections to Columbia are far stronger and therefore February 1st, the day that the Columbia shuttle failed to return to earth, is always a tough day for me and a day on which I remember the sacrifices made by the people who came before me in my desired career path.

On January 27th, 1967 the crew of Commander Gus Grissom, Senior Pilot Ed White, and Pilot Roger Chaffee climbed into their Apollo 1 command module for some pre-flight testing. This test was seen as routine and safe, due to the fact that the Saturn rocket was unfueled. However, once inside and strapped in, the crew members were reclining in their horizontal couches, running through a checklist when a voltage transient was recorded and ten seconds later sounds of scuffling and shouts of "fire" were heard from all three crew members. They struggled to get out and only 17 seconds after the first indication by crew of any fire, the transmission ended abruptly with a scream as the cabin ruptured after rapidly expanding gases from the fire overpressurized the command module.

The ground crew was unable to reach the module because of intense heat, dense toxic smoke, malfunctioning gas masks and shock waves and explosions from the cabin. There were further fears the fire might ignite the solid fuel rockets in the launch escape tower above the command module, likely killing nearby ground personnel. It took five minutes to open the inner and outer hatches, a set of three with many ratchets. By this time the fire in the command module had gone out. Although the cabin lights remained lit the ground crew was at first unable to find the astronauts. As the smoke cleared they found the bodies but were not able to remove them. The fire had partly melted the astronauts' nylon space suits and the hoses connecting them to the life support system. Grissom's body was found lying mostly on the deck. His and White's suits were fused together. The body of Ed White (whom mission protocol had tasked with opening the hatch) was lying back in his center couch. White would not have been able to open the inward-opening hatch against the internal pressure. Chaffee's job was to shut down the spacecraft systems and maintain communications with ground control. His body was still strapped into the right-hand seat. It was determined that the astronauts died not of the burns they received from the fire but from asphyxiation as the command module filled with smoke.

The Apollo 1 fire shook NASA and the American public to its core. This was at the height of the Space Race and America was still trying to catch up to the Soviets. Despite the tragedy, the Apollo program continued with a slightly altered mission schedule and a redesign of the Command Module.

This was the United State's first exposure to loss of life in the very public space program (compared to the secretive nature of the Soviet program). However, the dedication of NASA and the determination of the astronaut corps to continue kept the American space program from disintegrating in the aftermath. Perhaps the best description of this single-minded purpose was made by Gus Grissom himself when he said in an Apollo press conference "If we die, we want people to accept it. We're in a risky business and we hope that if anything happens to us it will not delay the program. The exploration of space is worth the risk of life."

The American space program did continue and after sending 6 manned crews to the surface of the moon NASA changed its focus to research in space as opposed to manned space exploration. The Space Shuttle was created as a means to transport to and from space stations and was designed to fly 100 missions and operate for 10 years. The shuttle program had a successful beginning but this early success led to complacency and carelessness in the NASA administration, a carelessness that led to the second tragedy, the Challenger explosion of January 28th 1986.


While Space Shuttle launches were seen as fairly routine (having already successfully completed 24 launches) this specific mission received a lot of attention from the public due to the presence of the first "civilian" on-board. In 1984 Ronald Reagen announced the Teacher in Space program and kicked off a competition for schoolteachers to apply to become astronauts. This was meant to inspire children to get interested in science and engineering and hoped to gain publicity for the space program. New Hampshire schoolteacher Christa McAullife was chosen and trained alongside the STS-51 L crew.

On the morning of the launch the temperatures at the launchpad were as low as 8 deg F (-13 deg C). Engineers at Morton Thiokol, the company that constructed a crucial component of the shuttle's solid rocket boosters (the white boosters on the sides of the orange tank) had expressed concerns that their component (called an O-ring) would fail at low temperatures. However, these concerns were ignored and silenced by Morton Thiokol leadership and NASA administrators and Challenger was cleared to launch despite the low temperatures and possible O-ring failure.

Because of the presence of McAuliffe, this launch was televised and watched in thousands of classrooms across the country (48% of 9-13 year old children the US watched the launch on tv).

A mere 37 seconds into the launch, the O-ring did indeed fail, causing a plume of flame and gas to leak from the right solid rocket booster. This caused the shuttle to veer significantly off-course and resulted in a total breakup of the shuttle. 73 seconds into flight the shuttle completely fell apart (didn't actually explode, just disintegrated due to the high aerodynamic pressure), killing all 7 astronauts and sending debris flying into the Atlantic ocean. The entire sequence of the launch and shuttle breakup was shown live on television.

President Ronald Reagan was scheduled to give the State of the Union address that night however that speech was canceled and, instead, he gave what is widely considered one of the greatest speeches of his presidency. Full text of the speech here:

"Ladies and Gentlemen, I'd planned to speak to you tonight to report on the state of the Union, but the events of earlier today have led me to change those plans. Today is a day for mourning and remembering. Nancy and I are pained to the core by the tragedy of the shuttle Challenger. We know we share this pain with all of the people of our country. This is truly a national loss.

Nineteen years ago, almost to the day, we lost three astronauts in a terrible accident on the ground. But we've never lost an astronaut in flight; we've never had a tragedy like this. And perhaps we've forgotten the courage it took for the crew of the shuttle. But they, the Challenger Seven, were aware of the dangers, overcame them and did their jobs brilliantly. We mourn seven heroes: Michael Smith, Dick Scobee, Judith Resnik, Ronald McNair, Ellison Onizuka, Gregory Jarvis, and Christa McAuliffe. We mourn their loss as a nation together.

For the families of the seven: we cannot bear, as you do, the full impact of this tragedy. But we feel the loss, and we're thinking about you so very much. Your loved ones were daring and brave, and they had that special grace, that special spirit that says, "Give me a challenge, and I'll meet it with joy." They had a hunger to explore the universe and discover its truths. They wished to serve, and they did. They served all of us. We've grown used to wonders in this century. It's hard to dazzle us. But for 25 years the United States space program has been doing just that. We've grown used to the idea of space, and perhaps we forget that we've only just begun. We're still pioneers. They, the members of the Challenger crew, were pioneers.

And I want to say something to the schoolchildren of America who were watching the live coverage of the shuttle's takeoff. I know it is hard to understand, but sometimes painful things like this happen. It's all part of the process of exploration and discovery. It's all part of taking a chance and expanding man's horizons. The future doesn't belong to the fainthearted; it belongs to the brave. The Challenger crew was pulling us into the future, and we'll continue to follow them.

I've always had great faith in and respect for our space program, and what happened today does nothing to diminish it. We don't hide our space program. We don't keep secrets and cover things up. We do it all up front and in public. That's the way freedom is, and we wouldn't change it for a minute. We'll continue our quest in space. There will be more shuttle flights and more shuttle crews and, yes, more volunteers, more civilians, more teachers in space. Nothing ends here; our hopes and our journeys continue. I want to add that I wish I could talk to every man and woman who works for NASA or who worked on this mission and tell them: "Your dedication and professionalism have moved and impressed us for decades. And we know of your anguish. We share it."

There's a coincidence today. On this day 390 years ago, the great explorer Sir Francis Drake died aboard ship off the coast of Panama. In his lifetime the great frontiers were the oceans, and an historian later said, "He lived by the sea, died on it, and was buried in it." Well today we can say of the Challenger crew: Their dedication was, like Drake's, complete.

The crew of the space shuttle Challenger honored us by the manner in which they lived their lives. We will never forget them, nor the last time we saw them, this morning, as they prepared for their journey and waved goodbye and "slipped the surly bonds of earth" to "touch the face of God.""

The Challenger accident halted the shuttle program for almost 3 years. During that time a Commission was created to determine the causes of the accident and make recommendations to NASA. The Roger's Commission found it to be not an engineering failure but a failure of ethics, siting the leadership both at Morton Thiokol and at NASA for ignoring the warnings of the engineers. New protocol was created in an attempt to prevent a similar event from occurring again.


As I mentioned earlier, while I do feel a connection the the Apollo 1 and Challenger crews and feel the pain of their loss, I have a special connection to the Columbia STS-107 crew that was lost in February of 2003. Both my father and my uncle were close friends with Ilan Ramon, the Israeli astronaut on-board the shuttle. My dad and Ilan went through pilot training together and Ilan was at my parent's wedding.

My dad's flight school course. My dad is 3rd from the left in the 2nd seated row, Ilan is on his left.

My uncle and Ilan were a part of the first Israeli squadron of F-16s and flew the mission to bomb the Iraqi nuclear reaction in 1981.
My uncle Amos (l) and Ilan (r) in Salt Lake City for F-16 flight training.


When it was announced that an Israeli would be included on a shuttle launch, Ilan was selected and he and his family moved to Houston. Delays in the shuttle program and the fact that the Columbia shuttle isn't outfitted to dock with the International Space Station meant that the Ramon family's stay in Texas was several years longer than originally planned but they were allowed to stay and finally, years after they were originally scheduled to fly, STS-107 was cleared for launch on January 16th 2003. My dad was invited to the launch and, because of my interest in (or you could say obsession with) the space program, my dad accepted the invitation and took me along to the launch. It was a great few days spend with just me and my dad and I was really excited to see the Kennedy Space Center and the museums and exhibits down at the Cape. We went to a reception held by Rona (Ilan's wife) the night before the launch and I got to meet lots of Abba's Air Force friends. The morning of the launch we were driven to the Banana Creek viewing site, the VIP viewing area. The Banana Creek is the closest you can be to the launchpad without being inside.

We waited anxiously for the launch which, thankfully, went forward without delay and seemingly without incident. The space shuttle launch was, without a doubt, the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed in my life. One thing that struck me at the time, and will stay with me forever, was the three part way in which I experienced the launch. While we were closest you can be to the pad, we were still just over 3 km away and the distance and the difference between the speed of light and sound was significant. So when the clock reached zero we looked across and saw the shuttle lift off the pad. Several seconds later, after the shuttle had already cleared the launch tower, we heard the sound of the engine ignition and the roar of the engines. Finally, a few seconds later, we "felt" the shuttle launch. It was absolutely incredible!! We got some amazing photos (the one below being my favorite) and my dad got the launch on video as well. Such an amazing experience and one that I will never forget.


Sadly the excitement of the experience was cut short on February 1st when I woke up and saw the TV images of the shuttle breaking up in the skies over Texas. Due to (again) cold temperatures on launch morning, a section of the external tank (big orange tank) had broken off upon launch and had fallen into the ceramic tiles that protect the underside of the shuttle from the heat of re-entry. The hot plasma and gas from the earth's atmosphere had gotten inside the shuttle and caused it to break apart, again taking the lives of the crew members onboard. I was absolutely devastated and shocked and the loss of the crew hit me really hard; I couldn't believe it was happening. My family and friends were amazing in getting me through it but the lives, and loss, of the Space Shuttle Columbia STS-107 crew cemented my desire to be an astronaut and have provided me with inspiration throughout the last 8 years of my life. I even have STS-107 engraved on the inside of my Academy class ring for inspiration.

President Bush also gave a speech in response to the tragedy. While I have some strong opinions about President Bush, I will say that I loved his speech and will always hold him in high regard for this particular address.

"My fellow Americans, this day has brought terrible news and great sadness to our country. At nine o'clock this morning, Mission Control in Houston lost contact with our Space Shuttle Columbia. A short time later, debris was seen falling from the skies above Texas. The Columbia is lost; there are no survivors.

On board was a crew of seven: Colonel Rick Husband; Lt Col Michael Anderson; Commander Laurel Clark; Captain David Brown; Commander William McCool; Dr Kalpana Chawla; and Ilan Ramon, a Colonel in the Israeli Air Force. These men and women assumed great risk in the service to all humanity.

In an age when space flight has come to seem almost routine, it is easy to overlook the dangers of travel by rocket, and the difficulties of navigating the fierce outer atmosphere of the Earth. These astronauts knew the dangers, and they faced them willingly, knowing they had a high and noble purpose in life. Because of their courage, and daring, and idealism, we will miss them all the more.

All Americans today are thinking, as well, of the families of these men and women who have been given this sudden shock and grief. You're not alone. Our entire nation grieves with you. And those you loved will always have the respect and gratitude of this country. The cause in which they died will continue. Mankind is led into the darkness beyond our world by the inspiration of discovery and the longing to understand.

Our journey into space will go on.

In the skies today we saw destruction and tragedy. Yet farther than we can see, there is comfort and hope. In the words of the prophet Isaiah, "Lift your eyes and look to the heavens. Who created all these? He who brings out the starry hosts one by one and calls them each by name. Because of His great power, and mighty strength, not one of them is missing."

The same Creator who names the stars also knows the names of the seven souls we mourn today. The crew of the shuttle Columbia did not return safely to Earth; yet we can pray that all are safely home.

May God bless the grieving families. And may -- may God continue to bless America."


Much talk has been had recently about the value of the space program and the amount of resources that the United States should allocate to NASA and the space program. While I acknowledge that I am biased in this area, I do strongly believe in the benefit of space exploration and manned space flight. I won't go massively into it here because its far too long to be included in this already super long blog post, but I'll just mention a few things. The biggest benefits of space flight have been in areas that we didn't even anticipate would arise from spaceflight. The technologies that have been developed (from semi-conductors to water purification systems to scratch resistant lenses to environmental monitoring systems to breast cancer detection systems to magnetic liquids to velcro) for use in spaceflight that have benefited mankind on earth are numerous and the potential for further innovation in space is limitless. We must continue to explore space and send humans to escape the bounds of our world and into others.

Again, leaving it up to other people to say what I feel about the issue of spaceflight and space exploration, Michael Collins (the 3rd member of Apollo 11 that everyone forgets about) said "It's human nature to stretch, to go, to see, to understand. Exploration is not a choice, really; it's an imperative."


God bless the memories of the brave men and women who gave their lives in an attempt to go higher and farther than man has gone before and to bring the rest of us along with them.

Apollo 1- 27 January 1967
Virgil "Gus" Grissom
Edward While
Roger Chaffee

STS-51-L Challenger- 28 January 1986
Francis "Dick" Scobee
Michael Smith
Ellison Onizuka
Judith Resnik
Ronald McNair
Gregory Jarvis
Sharon Christa McAullife

STS-107 Columbia- 1 February 2003
Rick Husband
Willie McCool
Michael Anderson
Dave Brown
Kalpana "KC" Chawla
Laurel Clark
Ilan Ramon